Pepa AGUAR

El que em queda de tu

Edicions 62, 2021 | What I Have Left From You

Awards

Joanot Martorell Prize 2020

Press

«Sensitive, delicate prose telling the story of a daughter who little by little must say goodbye to her mother, a prisoner of Alzheimer’s. A sincere, measured, and emotional story.» Valeria Gaillard

«A novel that treats with lyricism, delicacy, and defiance the painful dissolution of memory. A sentimental narrative constructed in clear and vigorous prose.» Xavier Aliaga

«Moving, intelligent, and full of poetic images, Pepa Aguar’s first novel is a hymn to life and an homage to literature with a capital L.» Laura Ferrero

«A powerful, unique, humble voice. A very vivid, joyous text about the reconstruction of memory. Pepa’s novel is the village where we all lived when we were little.» Lolita Bosch

Synopsis

A heartrending novel about mothers, daughters, and a cruel illness that condemns people to forgetting. Pepa Aguar’s literary debut.

Forgetting mows down life’s beautiful moments. Little by little, but quickly, the mother who was your mother vanishes. Her bright spots are fewer and fewer; she no longer kisses you with tenderness and joy, and she doesn’t say your name so often. All those things came before the verb remember took on body and weight. From then to now, Fineta stopped being what she was. A sad, cruel illness is clouding her mind. Everything that formed part of her life––the fruit store in the village of Benetússer, close to Valencia, the meetings with relatives and friends, the stories about Grandma Teresa, whom she treasures—all that is consigned to oblivion. Only her daughter’s sporadic returns to the village she left years ago to study and work in Barcelona away from her family bring back the occasional spark of memory and lucidity.

What I Have Left of You talks about women, grandmothers, mothers, and daughters, about the words still remaining to be said. Powerless, we witness the liturgy of a disease that inevitably leads to forgetting. But in the process of loss, we also witness the liturgy of remembering, a thousand-year-old liturgy that has names, a body, weight, and light, and that offers us a portrait of three women, three generations from the same family.